Sometimes it feels as if I was meant to appreciate art rather than create it. I've never followed through with a single creative idea on canvas but envy those who do because I'm far too afraid to even attempt it.
It's scary. I wouldn't lose anything, if anything I'd learn from it but it's hard to be optimistic when you're afraid of finding out you aren't as great as people have built you up to be.

I like that I can create. I tell people I want to be an artist "when I grow up" but the last thing I want is to end up being one of those people who constantly brag about how great of an artist they are when the best and last thing they've ever done was in high school.

"I don't have time to paint" is my excuse for now but.. I don't want to give up. I need inspiration but I don't want to go looking for it, only because it feels far too forced if I do.